| | i miss u like crazy
but i promise/d to be strong. i promised this time i would use every ounce of my willpower & i am using every bloody mental & emotional resource i can muster.
fck.
so i can't even tell u that i miss u like crazy...i can't even do that...sigh.
maybe ur somewhere right this moment missing me like crazy being pushed to the boundaries of ur own willpower not to contact me on 'that' level anymore
sigh. but this is for the best. mutually, bipartisan.
i hate that. 'you can do better'. define 'better'. maybe i just let go of what was truly my 'better' in order to pursue something that better matched your 'better'.
nonono. no what ifs. it's done (for like the 3rd bloody time. it doesn't get any easier just coz u've done it before!!!) & it must stay done. at least for now. define 'for now'. how long exactly is that? please tell me. i don't know how much more of this i can take. no that's stupid. shut up. you can do it.
but i miss you...
tell me how to make it stop. i can do it if i make it stop...
i cried myself to sleep last night
is that really doing 'better'???
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| | Posted 5/5/2009 11:25 PM - 29 Views - 2 eProps - 1 Comment
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